I've been thinking lately. Did I ever mention that I avoid you? Cos, I don't think I'm avoiding you. Think carefully before you put it into a statement. You're wrong, absolutely wrong.
Give me realiable reasons if it helps myself to understand you. You know what?
I have feelings too. But why I'm the always one who bother to care about other people feelings.
You don't even know how I face this kind of situation. I, myself confused & felt so miserable as in SERBA SALAH. I can't afford to hurt both of you by my actions cos I gonna feel the pain too.
I got no choice but to stand strong or weak at own pace. I know you giving up on me. I know how it feels. Yes, it hurts. But, I speak up for my rights & the truth rather than I give you high hopes.
I bet if I keep on giving you high hopes you gonna hate me more deeper. Let the time tell/solve everything & slowly. Insya'allah, it change bit by bit. It takes time to heal it.
I've been there & rock that.
PEACE.
I wrapped all up for NAPFA. Finally, a YAY! Mr Mani was so kind-hearted just now. Girls, you know I know. Nyeahahaha. After the 2.4 km run ended... we ran over to high-jump. I had fun trying it although I'm first-timer. Should try it more and then I become pro. laughs*
I'm
so over you over you over you over you over you. You pissed me off, somehow.
don't wish to bump into you anymore. Get away from my sight cos it hurts.
Overjoy note; I thought I gonna flung so badly for POA chap 3 & 4. I'm wrong. It turned out to be good. Syukur Alhamdulilah. smiles* You see? I need to build up my confidence cos I've lose it along the way. Urgh(!) Kickass feelings. Wed having BEO make-up lesson, 10-11am. To cover the lesson up which we used up on last NDP event. Actual BEO lesson is 11am-1pm. Now, it extended. Thank god, only on that particular day if these continue my brain cells gonna be dead anytime. Thanks by the way. Hah! Awesome or what? Nevermind. Berkorban apa saja. (:
Today's intention after school was to be at Atiqah crib to try out our expariment. Nyeahaha. The planned was crush & thrown away just like that. Cos, we got ideas to cover it all up. Hopefully, Mdm Hug agree with what we have decide, pretty please will you?
Okayyyyyyyyyy..... I want to eat Mdm Juedah nasi lemak. hungry hungry liou.
later!
Been raining for three days straight. I'm in love with the weather somehow. The negative thing is that we couldn't enjoy the day went we're out. Cos its poured continuosly. Whatever it is, hujan itu kan berkat. Twehehehe. I stayed at home for the weekends & I survive still. I'm so used to it already. Nevertheless, its boring though cos sisters are out & no one I could talk to.
I'm yet to see saw high & low to search for this year hari raya baju. How sad. I can't figure out
what colour I'm going to wear. Cos, I got so many favourite colour on my list. Fickle-minded idiot.
I think I gonna flung so badly for what I did. Urgh. ):
2.4 km run is resume to tomorrow. Can't wait to wrap all up for napfa & I'm done. Hopefully, the weather tomorrow going to be shiny shine. No rainy rain please. Please, I'm sick of post-pone it cos we have do it alot of time. Further more, in few days time.. The muslim gonna fast. Fasting month coming. I'm sure no one would like to run on those days. Presentation next week & slides done. I'm nervous for everything. Not a good sign for me. I tend to be so nervous/stress up at times. Where I try to inhale & exhale.. I can do it, go for it babe.
Saturday rotted at home cos I don't know where to chill out and anyhoos yesterday's weather was not so good. Rainy drizzling cats & dogs. So, I had my whole day to chilled at home. Ahhh... I felt much much better & yes, I kept on falling asleep. No harm right? cos the weather was too good to be true. Lawl. Okay part nie, aku merepek jangan dilayan. Faham? =p
Cinta Fitri season 2 has just ended last night. And to my suprise, there will be Cinta Fitri season 3. Buat suspens kan diaorang... the crews I mean. Hahaha. Season 3 will be up next few months or so or maybe early next year, I think?
Adly & Shireen look so cute together.
Yesterday afternoon, me & sis dilla watched kusuk kasak show at SCTV. They were boardcasting about what happened in /out scene of CINTA FITRI season 2.
Literally, Shireen sang the theme song of it which was ATAS NAMA CINTA by Rossa. Adly being the extra back up singer. He purposely changed the lyrics to
"ATAS NAMA ADLY" at the ending of the song instead of ATAS NAMA CINTA. They sound cute.
okay.. sweet things to do.
Yes, I shall wait for it.
This feeling always come & go. Sometimes, driving me nuts. Mad over small littlest things. One minute, I'm happy another minute I'm feel like kicking anger out of nowhere.
What went wrong?!
Irit Irit Irit !
I can't control the mode. Why can't I have one too. Cos, I'm too young, mum said. I need space to think and take note off. I won't let this feeling conquer me. I don't want to give false/fat hope.. Pardon me if I did hurt you in any ways. Just don't give in high hope cos you might dissapointed.
Maybe, I don't deserve it so be it. Perhaps, theres more to come later.
No rush.
I'll find other way then.
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.
Whats up with last friday?
My girls & I went down to Wisma after sch. Yes! Finally, I bought the tops that I've been eyeing for. Wahahaha. The cost was so good. One long sleeve & one cardigan. Thanks for joining me babeS. Appreciate it alot! love you! ((: Went separate ways & I'm the loner so do eila. Haha. Upon reaching my way to tamp interchange... I bumped into Faiz the cousin with his friends. Waved at each other.. don't need to elaborate further la okay? Hehs. Walking & kept on walking with my mp3 on. Guess what? I bumped into Az. Lawl! Mata tajam apa Az... jamming kape? ahaha.
Me: Mata tajam sey tadi. Nampak aje.
Him: Biasa la.. Mataku kuat. Tak payah nak pakai cermin mata tau.
Me: Yelah.. Kenakan org nampak. Takpe2! :p
He's good on bullying people. WTH kan.
Yesterday sch day spent for one lesson which was POA. && thurs is our chap 4 class test. Like duhh! It happened every week. I'm get used to it now moreover in few days time is my actual test which is counted to the end of semester results. I'm nervous, really. With those face test drawing nearer & nearer. Mind you, we need to do the make-up infront of our teacher. Gahh. Scary shit... please when I'm in process of doing the make-up.... don't ever give me that strange look of yours okay Mrs Vicky! Or else I gonna cock up. LAWL!
Same day itself, went down to TKC after sch to meet mum. Our intetion there to buy 1 baju raya for me. But end up, 2 pair of bajuS for mum. How awesome? Lawl. I did enjoyed the quick outing with mummykus. Yeehaaaaaaa. Love you many many more more much much emak! <3
To think of it in details, OC have been cancelling S&W lesson for 2 weeks straight. I am indeed worried cos I'm not yet done with my 2.4km run. I'm not the only person who yet to complete 2.4km run plus the rest too. Nevertheless, the 5 stations are over... just waiting for 2.4km run to make my napfa test complete! grrr!~
Ehhh.. tomorrow going to be OC photo taking at forum. God, I'm so so sure that my position is to be sitted. Shorty be mine & feeling feeling cute. Wahahaha. Jgn marah! (; :p
Yay! Had new haircut after so long... the last one was in March, I think?
Hmphfptfff...
I get so annoyed when someone/anyone/somebody envy on what I wear & have. Really, irritants me alot. Did it bother you? They think they know everything about me in & out. This happened eversince I'm just a primary sch kiddo till now. I don't know why on earth they feel that way towards me. As if I owe them somethings if I have those. / As if I ask them for their money to buy those stuffs-branded things. Why should you care when you shouldn't? gahh... typical people.
SPLIT PERSONALITY also.
No, I don't need that stare from your eyes and theres no need to look from head to toes. Thanks but no thanks! Whatever ehh korang-korang. I'm used to it but still it annoyed freak wholelotbits hell of it. damn it !
DRESS
NOT
TO
IMPRESS
BUT
TO
EXPRESS
YOUR
INDIVIDUAL
SENSE OF STYLE.
This is me. This is how I wear. This is what I have. This is what I want.
This is what I need. This comes naturally.
EXCUSE ME,
I AM ME, MYSELF & I.
Indeed, every single one of you out there have your own style and makes you
(BE YOUSELF!). am I right?
SO BE IT!
However, I could never ever make people satiesfied/feel good with what I wear.
Its their choice though. I can't stop them from hating/envy me. Even though you didn't tell me off straight to my face. Still, I can sense it & read people's mindset.
One more thing, do my face look
square??? Cos, someone told me that I have one.
I can't accept these shits from her. Is she blind or something?! I think she has cock eyes or what?! Pardon me but yea you talk cock & you've been testing my patient all this while. My patient has its limit. Don't try me or test me too much cos it might erupt anytime from now onwards. Urgh. She thinks she have oval face shape.
"Yea right!" Laugh out loud now please ms haziqah! Yes, I can be evil to the people who nasty towards me and I can be angel to the people who nice towards me. Ohh god, look into the mirror properly before you make comments to people.
pffffffffffffffttttttttttttttttt.
I update my blog almost every single day? lawl. I so gonna be MIA later. just you wait & see.
Fridays going to by ohh - so - fabulous day ever. Had BEO chap 3 test, thank god. I managed to answer all questions due to my morning brain cells which can absorbed. Hah! Btw, it helped alot. smiles* No, I avoid doing last minute study when comes to big examination. I felt guilty if I do so. Cos, I've learnt my mistakes that I made previously. Skip that & try to move on & make some changes too. Like what people said...? Take one step at a time. Yea right ( ! ! ! ! )
Tomorrow is compulsory for me to attend Nisfu Syabaan thing which held at S'pore Expo like I usually did every year. To think of it further, fasting month is next month. How time flies so fast. I can't wait for it as I could starve myself up... stop munching, EXACTLY. I love fasting month cos it help to make our bonding come closer. I bet whenever break fast, dad & myself gonna talk alot for sure. you know I know. I'm daddy's girl. wahahahaha. Sept?! Wait for my morning grumble. nyeahahaha.
Okay, I saw beautiful gladiators and the cost is reasonable & so goOdy goOd go Go!
I can't wait to grab it. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
will update about today's happening event in next post. bye!
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Desperately need a break.
Come on, retail therapy please.
lots on my lists.
13/08today - blast one ever. i love you love me.
BEO lesson continue with our project tasks. Tasks were given equally among the group which is fair & square. Every wed(s) usually continue with our tasks so yea nothing interesting though. Fri gonna be chap 3 class test. How annoying! But whatever the class test helps to add in marks to the final assest. So why not? Hehs. Hiccups every week to face those class testS.
Break time was spent at cafe 2. Had our lunch & chat as we always did girls/bgr/schwrk and the list goes on. While talking, I noticed that a group of guys looking around our area. I don't know why. Ignored them & walked off. Blablabla black sheep & sat down again(chilling corner) to wait for the next lesson which was BEG. We waited till 2pm... and we went down to Beauty Therapy room to have our make-up trail.
Safilah was picked to be the face model. Monitored how the teacher did it... I swear she took so much time to finished up her demostrating. bleargh! Walalalalalala~ Wash up & quickly did my make-up.. While busy doing on my task.. I saw Raudah had her eyebrow shave. I want it too... too bad lor! If mum see any changes to my eyebrow.. More blabering to come. boo! Suprisingly, I'm the only one in my group to put on make-up. Its for fun & practise my skill on putting those painting to my face. Moreover, face test is coming. So why not I get prepare now. Hehs. Afterall, I doesn't really looked like I've put on make-up. Jyeah. The girls told me that my make-up was natural one. Okay, good to know cos I love natural looks. I forget to bring my nude lipgloss. Careless! No heavy make up for now.. perhaps, when I get married than that will do. (: hehehe.
12/08
Soccer time (!!)
Watched those ITE EAST, WEST, CENTREL fought against each other. Hahaha. Its the GIRLS who played yaw! Proud of it. Good game but the wheather wasn't good though. Earlier on was fine but later it started to drizzling still they continued the match. Ain & Riah kept making comments on this & that. Ain kept on saying, "Main solo nmpk,main solo nmpk... smpai tak nak pass bola kat orang lain." So.. Riah said " Korang nie bukan nak spread!" & they got more to say. I shut it & just follow with the flow.
Got back our POA test paper which we did last thurs. Syukur Alhamdulilah, I passed. :) Still, I'm not satisfied. Need to work harder to make ownself satisfied more. hee hee hee. Okay, how irritating. hurhurhur!
08/08
Friday-National Day Celebration (!!!)
Had national day celebration in school. COS classes was supposed to be at stadium to watch soccer match. Bahh.. soccer match again? Not again. Hah! I bet it scorching hot. Luckily, Mrs Ng let us to walked around the school or watched the performance at forum if we want to. We decided to watch the performance at level 2. Cos was too crowded around the forum so we managed to escape to the top. Nice view from the top & more clearer. We don't really enjoyed the performance except for malay dance & singing along with the school guitarist. Wahahaha~ Nevertheless, the emcees was cheeky & very friendly & supporting. Lawl.
After those.. myself,kamini & eila went to S'pore Expo just to have our window shopping at Metro Sales. We burned our time there. So yea, that was how my fri spent. (:
First thing first,
I'm so so so happy that my bestest ladies have found their other halves. I'm excited upon recieved this news pop out. Hmmm... after so long you lead a single life but hey now no more okay ladies! ((:
All the best to both of you okay darlings! everlasting love youhooos (!!!!)
I felt uneasy. Why ohh why? God, please tell me the reasons. Cos, I need to know as simple as that. Thank you.
am desperado to watch LOVE GURU. anyone?
Happy 18th b'day NURULASHIKIN! May you have blissful b'day & may Allah bless you.
Enjoy you day alright! loves*
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Did I mention that I had a little bit of good catch up with my 2 darla nieces who stayed far away from S'pore? The iceland babys! No? Okay, I'll tell you now then. Hehs. We(Me&Kak Nur) webcam. I missed them so much that I could'nt bother to reply my msn friends msges. Lawl. Sorry hor! I miss them too much lahh. Eva & Tinna yelled their lungs out, serious. They yelled my name as in Aunty Iqah, like duhh ( !!) Haha. I even took their photo of them while they were shouting my name. Nyeahaha. Eva said she want to come over to my place. I told her to fly over to S'pore right after this. Mcm paham ehh ! Whatever Eva did, Tinna would followed. Sisters are meant to be like that. Monkey see, monkey do. Hahaha. There so much to talk about but maybe I'll meet them again over the webcam soon. Hehe. *winks
Okay I know I'm a day late but hey better then never right ! Haha. Just wanna wish .....
HAPPY
43RD BELATED
B'DAY
TO
SINGAPORE.
Abg boboy thought that I'm stuck as sec 4 girl & will be in sec 5 next year. You see, my own bro cousin also don't even know that I've finished my sec school life last year. Huahuahua. You tell me now, do my face look like I'm still a secondary school student? Wahahaha. Funny sey you. Don't say Secondary student... my grandma even thought that I'm still a Primay School student?! How horrible. tsk...
Yesterday was out to followed mum to jemputan & back home to watch LIVE NDP celebration through TV. tgk kat tv pun jadi la ehh. ahaha. Was so sleepy by then. I swear the wheather make me dozed off not only me but the rest too. hurhurhur. .jpg)
Many questions rolling in my brain & its bold. I know its been 2 years but so what kan? Maybe, its not my time just yet. I need to gain back my confidence cos I think its getting lower. Low self-esteem. urgh! I'm not brave/strong enough. I gotta do some changes to my life.
Am I too shy?
Am I too senstive?
Am I too quiet?
Am I arrogant?
Am I unapproachable?
Am I unfriendly?
Just so you know, I hate my situation.
miserable/mix up feelings.
JB trip was awesome, serious speaking. hee. The OC getting closer & closer to each other. The bonding is there. Thanks for the person (s) who organized this trip. Things went well. WEE~!
>>> excuse me for the SHAGGED FACE <<<
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